Sad

We've seen the kids several times since they left. We talked to them over the phone, saw them for Christmas, and even had dinner with them this week. Their parents have been very gracious to us, and for that we are grateful.

My friend told me tonight that I looked sad. I realized when I got home, alone to my empty house that she is right. I miss my kids, and I feel like part of me is missing. Although tears never really help, I can't keep them from flowing tonight. It's like a dam has opened...

There were so many tough nights when I was counting the days they would be gone. It's funny how perception changes those memories... even on the worst days, anything was better than not having them at all.

I know the kids are safe and happy, and that we did our "job". It just hurts. A lot. But this too shall pass, right?

Only with the faithful love of God. I am listening to the same song over and over tonight, trying to focus on that love.

Enclosed are the lyrics from the David Crowder Band "You Never Let Go":


When clouds veil sun, and disaster comes
Oh my soul, oh my soul.

When waters rise, and hope takes flight
Oh my soul, oh my soul.

Oh my soul.

Ever faithful, ever true
You are known, you never let go.

You never let go, You never let go, You never go (repeat).

When clouds brought rain, and disaster came
Oh my soul, oh my soul.

When waters rose, and hope had flown
Oh my soul, oh my soul.

Oh my soul.

Ever faithful, ever true
You are known, You never let go

You never let go, You never let go, You never let go (repeat).

Oh my soul, overflows
Oh what love, oh what love.

Oh my soul, feels with love
Perfect love that never lets go.

You never let go, You never let go, You never let go (repeat).

Oh what love, oh what love, oh what love (repeat).

Joy and pain, in sun and rain, You're the same, You never let go (repeat).

Never let go, never let go, never let go.